Tuesday, 27 October 2015

Starting Over

A lot has happened since the last time I wrote. I won't go into detail about everything because it would be very convoluted, but I will concentrate about the immediate next step, another IVF.

After a lot of talking and thinking, we decided to change clinics. We are now at a new clinic where the doctor seems more knowledgeable and with better communication skills, plus his treatments are adjusted to the patient, what a novel concept! (I know, I am being sarcastic, I have learned so much).

In this new clinic they actually did the test to find out my ovarian reserve, which all this time I was pretty sure was the reason of our problems. My AMH came back at 5.8, which according to the chart the doctor showed us is "Low Ovarian Reserve". The doctor is not really optimistic of our chances and recommended egg donation or adoption, but still gave us hope about what he would do different should we want to try again.

So we are trying again! We are doing our last IVF this November in this new clinic. We are starting monitoring and stimulation on day 2 instead of day 3, we are doing ICSI and we hope to transfer 3 day 2 embryos! Yes, 3 embryos. Even though it is scary to think that all 3 might work out, it just shows how little hope our doctor has on my eggs.

We are taking it one day at a time, have the money saved, not thinking about what to do if all 3 implant or not, or how many eggs I'm going to produce and how many embryos we are going to have. None of it, I know it will come but for now I am still on the bliss of knowing that I am not getting injected right now, and that I don't have a crazy daily schedule to follow, and that December will be a new start whatever happens in November.

This is it, our last chance actively trying at a fertility clinic. Only God knows what the outcome will be.